My husband is an Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature,
and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.
Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would have to
admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before,
has now ransformed into the cause of all my restlessness.
I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a
relationship and my feelings, I yearn for the romantic moments, like a
little girl yearning for candy. My husband, is my complete opposite, his
lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into
our marriage has disheartened me about love.
One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a
divorce.
"Why?" he asked, shocked.
"I am tired, there are no reasons for everything in the world!" I
answered.
He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in deep thought with a lighted
cigarette at all times.
My feeling of disappointment only increased, here was a man who can't even
express his predicament, what else can I hope from him? And finally he
asked me:" What can I do to change your mind?"
Somebody said it right, it's hard to change a person's personality, and I
guess, I have started losing faith in him. Looking deep into his eyes I
slowly answered : "Here is
the question, if you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my
mind, Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff,
and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will
you do it for me?"
He said :" I will give you your answer tomorrow...."
My hopes just sank by listening to his response.
I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with
his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near
the front door, that goes....
My dear, "I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to
explain the reasons further.."
This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.
"When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and
you cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can
help to restore the programs. You always leave the house keys behind, thus
I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you. You love
traveling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to
show you the way. You always have the cramps whenever your "good friend"
approaches every month, I have to save my palms so that I can calm the
cramps in your tummy.
You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by
infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to
cure your boredom. You always stare at the computer, and that will do
nothing good for your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow
old, I can help to clip your nails, and help to remove those annoying white
hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you
enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand... and tell you the color of
flowers, just like the color of the glow on your young face...
Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more
than I do... I could not pick that flower yet, and die.. "
My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting... and
as I continue on reading... "Now, that you have finished reading my answer,
if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside
bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk... I rush to pull open the
door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk
bottle and loaf of bread....
Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I
have decided to leave the flower alone...
That's life, and love. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of
excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in
between the peace and dullness.
Love shows up in all forms, even very small and cheeky forms, it has never
been a model, it could be the most dull and boring form.. . flowers, and
romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the
relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands... and that's
our life... Love, not words win arguments...
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Thanks and Regards
Rahul R N Katarey
Deeds................................ Not words Shall Speak me
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